Hello y’all and welcome back to the blog!
It’s me again and this post is more or less for me to vent but I also think that it is a very important important topic to discuss.
Back on August 2nd, I turned 21. Though that day was supposed to be many great things, my aunt Delores passed that day. We knew that it was coming, she had been in a hospice house for at least a few days. But it still came as a shock to me. And yet, I haven’t cried. I’ve wanted to cry, but I haven’t. I don’t know what is holding me together, I don’t know if it is my faith or something else. I remember the day she passed, not only because it was my birthday, but also because just a few hours prior to her passing, I prayed. Now, I’m not that religious, I want to be more involved in my religion, but I accept that I’m not. But I prayed anyways. I prayed that I wanted my aunt Delores to be out of pain. I prayed that I would be okay if she passed on my birthday and that I just wanted her to be free of her pain. God answered those prayers quickly. I remember when I prayed this, I didn’t think that my prayers would be answered that quick. But they did. And just like that, in a moments notice, my favorite aunt passed without me even getting the chance to visit her. And yet, I think I’m fine. I somehow have held it together.
This story is my first. I had never had a family member die. Not once before her and I had just turned 21. Most of my family members had died before I was born. So I didn’t fully understand it when others cried about their loved ones dying. I know how foolish this sounds. I know how innocent this sounds. I know how blessed I am to have gone that long without having a family member die. But life hit me like a semi-truck on a highway. Life and reality slapped me. But the funny thing is, I’m not sure how to act still. I’m in pain from her passing and yet, I know that I’ll be okay. I know that she is in a better place, but if I didn’t have my faith, I don’t know if I would’ve held it together. Coping has kept me together.
I know that this was not an exceptionally long post but I definitely appreciate you reading! It means the world to have your continued support!
I hope you all have a wonderful day! Tell me in the comments below, how do you cope? How do you handle hardships?